could we just leave everything to fate?
if things dont end up e way it should be.
is that fate?
are things going to end up like the way it is?
like now?
having the choice to choose between
yesterday and tomorrow.
which would you choose?
i'd choose yesterday.
the memories that we once had.
something one could never forget.
it mean so much to me.
yet now it seems nothing to anyone

`caught in e middle is something i hate to. but yet, it is where i am

"Amazed"

Everytime our eyes meet
This feeling inside
Is almost more than I can take
Baby when you touch me
I can feel how much you love me
And it just blows me away
I've never been this close to anyone or anything
I can hear your thoughts
I can see your dreams

I don't know how you do what you do
I'm so in love with you, it just keeps getting better
I wanna spend the rest of my life with you by my side
Forever and ever
Every little thing that you do
Baby I'm amazed by you

The smell of your skin
The taste of your kiss
The way you whisper in the dark
Your hair all around me, baby you surround me
You touch everyplace in my heart
Oh it feels like the first time everytime
I wanna spend the whole night in your eyes

[Chorus]

Every little thins that you do
I'm so in love with you
It just keeps getting better
I wanna spend the rest of my life with you by my side
Forever and ever
Every little thing that you do
Baby I'm amazed by you

am watchin HITLER The Rise Of Evil. 3 discs.. *yawnns* bout 3 hrs. i dont think i can withstand that few hrs more. thank god i'm feelin slpy n tired todae. so am not goin to read.
am readin harry potter!!! weirdo hurrs. n very slowwww.. enjoy it.

glo came my place.. mom gave her facial.. also to get her buy some product.. that are made from herbs. i wont sae it's very cheap. things like that doesnt come cheap. yeahh.. but for ur own face.. wud u rather apply chemicals on ur face everytime(women)? no right?.. yeahh. really gotta take good care.

n yesh am goin to jb for like 1/2 on thurs. with mom, cousin n glo. takin bus! gawdd. cudnt imagine that. central sq this shoppin centre. pray that e things are like cheaper than sg. cos i think it wudnt b much diff. wasnt able to slp last nite.. till arnd 4am.. forced myself yo slp. thinkin lots of things. n sad of cos. well, make my best outta everything. so long as pple are happy. of cos i love their company. =]

hmmx. sat if cp n su are free.. prolly meet em.. been a week. aft eatin cartel's baked macaroni wit em.. i've got this crave for it. n wht.. went to nephew's place that dae. he commented that i've grown FATTER?!?!?! *pouts* i went joggin that dae. aint cut out to run or jog. swimming's still e best for me. ",

GO HITLER! ;P

i slept at 5am in e morning.. wanted to forget bout slpin.. or prob slp for 1 hr. but cant. ... spent some time clearin my sec 4 books, files, notes, tys. 4 piles of it. prolly jus leave it outside my hse for garang guni or downstairs. usually downstairs.. some peeps wud take it. cos they've gt no money?.. whteva, yepps. countin daes.. to sat agn. i've got clothes unwashed n all.. dont know wht mom use to wash now. no more washin powder. *weird* jus ask her to help me.. yepps.
it's work tmrs =] am havin tuition ltr..pray hard e kids did their hwk. *crosses finger*

mom's prob goin to KL this comin week. most prob this coming sun. wud b goin with her. get outta sg. thou it isnt a place which i really want to go. but yea.. just get outta this place. wanna go to rendang.. some place in mlysia. where it's alwaes sunny. love it!.. god knows when will that be.

met hee jung while i'm goin to meet glo at thomson plaza. yepp, she joined us then.. chatted with her. her life's like rainbow. comparin to mine. sighs. burdd.. all i can sae is that she's a bloody bitch!.. a real one. lols.. that girl. but i'd lead a simpler love life than hers thou. =] great time talkin to her...

i've this love for yamaha's piano.. one that i'm eyein on is $9200.00 =x superb ex.

why is everything so complicated?
life.people.matters.
why...
can life ever be simple?

gawddd does anyone wants to swim. i really want to.. one place i could think of is my tuition kids place. BUT cant shower there. damnns. it's like e weather's so great n all.. but i am pure lazy to get my ass off.. n i dont wanna go alone. *duhh*
n mel's like pure lazy to swim.. when e pool's like downstairs.. n she jus had her lunch. piggy~~

e weather's scorchin hot!! kinda remind me like dunno hw many yrs back.. when my nephew was still a toddler, we used to go swimming at this old nus or ntu site.. erhhs.. e place where smu is now. yepps. there'd lots of pple. =] miss those daes.

aights.. went ikea ytsd wit mom.. ordered e book shelve n table.. delivery wud b on nxt sun. i've got a week to pack all my stuff. spring-cleanin. hate it.. one thing my room's in a mess. rather my table.. still have all e sec4 notes stacked together.. storybooks..blahh. asked mom to get some boxes from e prov shop but she said it's hot. damnn. i gotta go down myself then. =\

aights change of song agn. =) simple plan -addicted. su rmbr this song?! i'm a-dic adic-ted to ya.. love u loadies aights.. *smaucks. i've thought bout sth once.. wht if i turn crook one dae. hehs. =p

am tryin to upload pics. but it's doin it very slowly.. smtimes i wonder is there any better ones than imagestation that does pic by pic. damms. but i've gotta think of waes to move all pics?! no wae! i've linked my album.. it's under "others" right at e bottom mong' e links.

e kids cancalled e tuition. they're stuck in a jam. hahas. yeahhs so i've got e whole nite to my own.. spendin time practisin piano. realised ever since i started readin n all.. i dint have time for it. yeshh so i kinda have e time for it now. postponed to tmr.. at 4.. aft my piano lesson.

ps: pics for e chalet's uploaded. apologies for those not i've yet upload. =x

hahahs aights.. am still at gloria's place. gonna go very soon. =] lols.. jus wanna blog that simon n paula kissed!!! french-kissed. my gawdd. simon's sucha good kisser. ( =P moves tongue; moisturin lips ) mann.. he's really good at it. n he blushed!!! cute. =} anyhows, matthew got kicked out. hmmx. think e song he sang's is great... isit called AMAZING? anyone noe??? tell me yea... =]... yawnnnss.. workin tmrs. more work to do... *poutie*

i found out sth!!!.. derek's got a girlfren.. lols. hmmx guess that's his gf... dont know la.. presume so. *LOLS*
no big deal burd.. yea.. my longest crush in skl..derek derek~ still find him lookin handsome with specs..(=p) too bad pple.. i'm someone without love.. unlike cp, su or glo. kinda shittie. like ure 17.. where is the love

oh well i guess blogger ate up ytsd entry. damms. nvms.. my net's been crazy these daes. dont know why either.

aights.. just got back from cousin-in-law's place. spent some time playin with my nephew.. WWE 'smackdown' anyone noes that?! some wrestling thingy. guys *roll eyes* yepps.. played with him.. i admit i'm bad at that. `pout. my thumb hurts!!! pressing e buttons too hard n continously. yeshh n we watched "cheaper by a dozen" durin dinner time. that's a very farnie n nice show.. cudnt imagine myself with 12 kids. tsk tsk. but e eldest son's very very cute.. cant rmbr which movie that he act in. *gorgeous*

am goin to walk my dog.. n yepp.. read mua book =) "the gift" by danielle steel. yes n to slp.. n e cycle repeats..

yesh yeshh su's got her plastic cup to stare at. =] crazy girl.. hahas. agree her reagan's cute... cornie in a wae i'd sae... floodin e customers with plain water. (u go girl~!)

got into elec comp & com (ECC) at nyp. dint manage to get into e sci courses. =( glo's psychoin me to appeal for nursing.
urghh i dont know how to sae. there's jus a small part of me thinkin okaee nursing's fine with me. but i mean i dont want to go in there half-hearted. doin wht i dont feel like doin. if that's wht i'm gonna feel THEN.

first thing com network pisses me off. n now.. not gettin into e sci courses. not much mood. am jus happy that i got in nyp.
`pouts

omg, byj's in sg imagine. lols. todae was e session that he signed e orchid for him!!! *grinss* hehs... he looked damn cool with his specs.. his hair. *faints* hahas. ytsd's TODAY has his stuff n all.. hahas. dont know that's e only thing made me REALLY grinnn. *chuckles*

gawddd. i really wanna see him. but he's gone prolly tmr. =| i'm gonna watch untold scandal!! anyone wants to watch it with me?! bet no one wants. hmmmx e sounds really scandalous! love it. hahas. n he's with this short beardie. wahhas. awww. ;p bought 8-daes cos of him.. well am gettin e front page you you weekly from chunyan. =)

smtimes work cud b how boring.. but that silly chunyan jus seems to irritate me n crack me up. i'm alwaes sayin i wanna quit todae.. this sat.. but it's like i need e money. sighs. Colleague was like c'mon it's easy money.. jus doin all "these". better than us pple sittin there crackin brains. -pouts- A'ights.. chunyan n another colleague persuadin me to work till MAY.
it isnt that i dont want to work. pure laziness. damms.

meetin cp n su tmr. prolly watchin e eye 2?! see hows. hehs yepp. it's just last week that i've met 'em. i've to admit i miss em la huhs. (:
pple pls take care of urself. e weather's like eva changin'. esp MELLIE!!! take care monkey.. speedy recovery for ya huhs. *huggs*

wells, hope e pic cud b seen now. off to go ta watch vcd, dvds!! hahas. n yepps. then watch i love my home on ch 8 N then my beloved AI!!! wOots!!! simply love it..

ooh ya suppose to prac my piano.. =x opps. yeshh bae yong-jun's comin tmrs!!! thinkin if i shud go n see him. *heart's itchin* hehs.. see hows. *smiles; bringin shoulders up* =]

just finished readin "message in a bottle" i know there's this movie on it. n damms i wanna get e vcd nows!! hehs. well, i know laserflair doesnt rent it. i've searched for it. prolly head down to HMV this weekend when i'm out. a vcd (: love e storyline. nicholas sparks books are jus pure marvelous aights!! love it. message in a bottle made me cry... 2 parts.. very very heart-aching. gawdd i love it dooperbly loaddies!! want to collect all of nicholas sparks books but am kinda poor. hehs.


worked with chunyan alone todae. stef dint go ta work. early in emorning, she was sayin sth like," dat fuckin' job, no life at all" sth like that. a lil taken back then. i agree pple. think bout it.. when we all start workin it's totally no life. frens are bzy workin so am i.. once u end work u jus feel damm friggin' tired. =| found out that my boss was at this line for 40yrs!!! omg. doin e same work n same time for 40 years! n wht chunyan did e whole dae was checkin n bundle of papers. and she dint manage to finish! hahahs. spent time laughin.. calculatin e avg births of babies from my bdae to hers. that's 125 babies per day. n calculatin our pays. till to dae, my pay's like $34+ minusin cpf. -pouts- so gotta get full attendance this week, excludin ytsd... which means from weds-sat. n also nxt mon. yeshh i need e money. earn back wht i've spent. *tsk*

and for e sake of e vcd.. e books that i spent!!.. left out 2 books that nicholas sparks wrote.. which FABLES bookstore doesnt have. The wedding, A bend in the Road. yepps, aft readin all these books shall head down to sunny bookstore!..
i really need some rest tonite.

`why am i so long-winded these daes?.. longggg entries. *roll eyes*

shud be at work now. n i'm not. some female probs.. =x n block nose. damns. wud tom yam help? hope so. yeshh.. stupid mom pinched me this morning. kinda a lil bruise. i call that an abuse. damms

there's like a thousand n when thing i shud do..1st. visit my grandma. *last seein her was on 9th feb*, 2ndclear up my sec four stuff. want to donate to gyss, but it's a hassle bringin it down. anyone noes like who to donate to?.. garang guni?? dont feel like throwin em.. prolly keep some books for bro. see if he make it this yr first. yeaa.. need to pack books, notes, files. 3rd, pass my nephew his gd result pressie.
`pouts. i was thinkin if parents wud pay me for being their maid... i wud wash e clothes, wash e dishes, walk e dog, do e chores 'cept for cookin. mayb like $350 per mth. hahs.. but i can wake up anytime. that's gna b v cool. but nahhs, dream on viv!!

su's goin out with u-nice!!.. girlie njoy yay.. hahas. tell me bout it. seen u-nice.. few sec of front view.. her back view's superb tiny-weeny. hahas. so cutee!!.. erhhs.. wells, i'm straight ;]

A'ights! a new layout. Realized my prev layout was kinda saddie moodie one. change of music too. hehs. more ALIVE one.
yepps. like it! budd it's like this late nows!! i've gotta work tmr too. =| gotta get myself outt bed no matter whts. *yawnns*

cousin came ova this aftnoon to get some subwoofer thingy back. so he gave me a lift to town. he jus passed his license, he asked me if i was scared. lols. no! i trust him (: yeahh while waitin for glo.. at somerset i decided to go john lil. i saw some shirts on sale! snoopy, spongebob blahhs. nephew jus came to my mind. hahas. yeshh! so i decided to get a shirt for him since i think he had done very well for his CAs =) yeshh. seem that my cousin-in-law n my taste are so damn e same. cos i shirts that i chose he had got it for ken. *pouts' yesh yesh.. n my ken's kinda tall n fit for his age. so i'm tryin to get a size 12 for kids! none.. none!!! damm. so i choose another shirt.. n look an L!.. it looks small to me.. but i cud fit in. since i can.. he's sure able too! ;]

headed str8 down to heeren, went lookin for my jeans. glo was like my maid n all.. hangin e jeans on her back. (she was in e changin room with me) well, she's been treated like princess for 16+yrs.. it's time she become a maid. few mins wont kill!
lols.. n i think that levi's man that served us was quite a cute one?.. hahas. n saw e ex-gy RAY. better lookin now. pple change la huhs. dont noe why i'm jus so blur n all thru out e dae... gawdd.

yepps. went flash n splash.. saw e same 2 design wallets. =\ damm it. wanted to try my luck at surfbabe at wisma. that friggin shop closes at 8pm!!! 8pm can!?!? wht e hell. so headed back to heeren hopin that flash n splash isnt close. thank god it havent!.. instead of gettin e ah neh wallet.. which has this flowery thingy.. got e other one.. yeshh n i like it. bought LOVE ACTUALLY soundtrack too. spendin lots today hurrs. feelin moodie n stuff.. so wanna get a cd. heart aches a lil.. but am very very happy. stupid gloria had a great luff in e train. *embarrass* silly goon.

shudd b in bed long ago.. =(
some things that i'm thinkin', how shudd i help. i know i need to n have to. dont want things to turn out this wae. :'[
i need your guidiance

just watch TEARS OF THE SUN all i can sae it's a very very nice n touchin show. i'd sae it's better than BLACK HAWK DOWN. =) bruce willis has wrinkles!! lots... hahas. kinda sad huhs. but well age doesnt matter. very very potential actor.

tears jus falls while watchin. e pain that the africans went thru.. one woman was raped. n her breast was cut off. e africans soldiers did that. so that they'd not b able to feed their children. some soldiers that are young boys. n e americans said: fuckin' young boy! *twist his neck* this show surely isnt for young kids..

gotta return e vcd todae but kinda want dad to see it.. he'd like it. see hows. day's gonna be spent washin laundries, reading.. yea that's bout all..

so many things that i dont wanna think 'bout. but i cant seem to stop em. the "whys" float in my mind.

wells. i'm sorta really tired out workin n tuitionin'. wht's more when i learnt bout my students results. for bryson, kinda disappointed i would sae. cos i expected much more from him as i think he's more mature in e way he does his stuff. n aeldra i think she did fairly good i would sae. other than their chi which i dont bother. yepps. their mom wanted to write a compo bout their bad results.. well.. for e subs that i taught none was like lower than 60. other than bryson's sci!!! 58.. i so wanna shut his mind off everything. stuff that i went thru with him e dae b4. gawdd. kaee back to e compo thingy. yepp, if they write well they're not gonna like b kicked outta hse n awae from spankin'.

seriously when i was helpin em with their some sorta "compo".. i was thinkin' first if i'm their mom. one thing.. confiscate everything from em.. they sorta sucked up by cartoon network nickelodeon gameboys, playstation. n their mom called from mlysia to ask em wht gameboy games they wanted when i'm havin tuition with em.. when their papers are like nxt dae!!!??? very spoilt. rmbr when i use to have my maid arnd.. even a cup of water it's: auntie water!!! cousin-in-law told my mom that she shudnt allow us to do that. imagine when i grow up... i'd still b like this. from then small lil things.. we'd do it ourselves.

A ights. nuff of crapz.. hehs. borrowed 4 books from FABLE.. sth like sunny bookstore. bury myself in em. more of romance? sth... got all nicholas sparks book cept a bend in the road. yeshh i cant find it!!! *pouts* n vcds. =]
out with frens tmr.. yipeee. realised i've spent lil time on practisin piano. dont know why my fingers got very stiff now. irritatin me somehow. n some are botherin me.. as i read.. "the notebook" it's a book tat i can somehow relate to.
dont know.. gonna watch HOT CHICK!! wahhas. thou i really wanna slp..yawnnsss

spent dae at home watchin vcd.. hahas. borrowed e butterfly n how to lose a guy in 10 daes. gawddd love it!!! how to lose a guy in 10 daes is like e show serendipity. hmmx i've watched serendipity from e middle. wanna rent it but they dont have it. =(

how niceee!! hahas. plan to quit my job in at e end of april. *yawnns* why pple have ta work? for e money. yea yea. money. *roll eyes* wAhhhh.. then it'd b tuitionin aft that!! cOol. cant wait to bum round like that gloria siew! happy livin' bummin' round.

AI ltr.. =) hopping george wud b in.. n some others. who are gd. =] kinda happy bummin' arnd.. arghhhsss.. time flies.. it will. n gloria watched butterfly effect! wahhas. dint noe she'd even DARE to watch that manns. looks kinda thrill to me already. it's okae rights gurl.. she watched it with T-rex *winks* wahhahas.

Congratulations - you're the beautiful, honest
Miranda Jones! Others may call you cynical,
but you consider yourself a realist. You don't
expect the impossible, and instead take
pleasure in the company of good friends and in
being able to control your own life, without
relying on anyone else. You expect a lot from
your friends and yourself, and even more from
men, and it takes a lot to get you to open up.
But you like it that way.


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hmmm kinda bored. gonna read e papers n yepp to slp. havent return e vcds. very lazy to get outta home. n to amk central that's like worse!!.. prolly return tmr. gotta pay fine for it. damns. arghss. laziness.

chalet was cool enuff. erhhs.. i've got this superbly obvious dark eye rings now!!!! =( arghhhs. cant even imagine i slept at like 6.++am.. when everyone was awake glo, su n i then went to bed. hahas. had a great time dancing.. talking. =] yeshh n i beat gloria in bowlin! hahas.. kinda evil of me.. her last game n i was "singin" away.. drainnee drainee drain drain. hahas.. all i can sae is cp cant seemed to bowl str8. lols. in this chalet found out few stuff bout pple n all. something i dont wish to happen. but it happened! damn fish. anyhows.. just hope she comes to her sense. n yea.. muscles are aching. no one's home... wanted to go bugis with mom. she went for interview. thinkin that i'm goin with her. e idea jus puts me off. cant seem to stand her now. why? i dont know.

shout: BOOOo!!!

wahhahs. well.. went to amk NTUC with stef. kinda shopped for e bbq stuff. gawdd. it's darn heavy i tell ya. imagine 2 girls carryin chicken wings.. blah blah blah. first time without mom huhs shoppin for stuff. hahas. so auntie way. *roll eyes*

Oh yea! n AI rawwwks. hahas. ryan seacrest is quite handsome withou his growin "beard" aights... shave it off dude!..
yesh yesh.. SIMON COWELL.. that guy's soo honest.. everything he said was like damn frank.. st8-fwd. =) cOol love him. thou i cud see lots of pple msgin in with those remarks scoldin him. blah blah blah blah *dumb* for nxt week's AI 3 daes of it... on fri.. has william hung. guess that's e one that e tv rate will shoot up. hahas. said as 'untalented' hehs. he needs braces seriously! william looks farnie. comical.

*winks* love AI n SURVIVOR all stars!.. hahas. went round amk central ytsd. in search for sth. yeshh. n guess wht dint even noe that amk central has TS video store. =x n there's a shop that rents vcd n dvd. rented, The Pianist, bringin down the house N kate & leopard. Bringin down the house is nice!!! hahas. damn farnie. The pianist is boring.. dozin off. it's bout Jews n e Germans. n yes hate germans.. sorta racial discrimination.. seriosuly.. obsurb. yesh thou i'm racist. i dont wanna see any of my frens whom are malays to b shot dead.. or even being beaten for god knows wht reason when they're walkin on e street. (shakes head)

took half dae leave todae. was sneezin n shiverin in e office. slight flu. *red-nosed*

this feeling has existed
ever since the day it happened.
never could i forget every single thing,
neither could i now.
i wish i could

*this is your song- ronan keating

Live your life to the fall
With a lifetime of smiles
Made us know right from wrong
Always knowing a lie
You made us to be tough
But never too rough
Rise above what you said
Never easily lead.

And one day we'll all sing along
'Cause this is your song
I wrote it for you
It won't take all day
Just a minute or two

You were a friend
Walk with you to the end
And one day we'll all sing along
'Cause this is your song

So I'll try and go on
Loving all that we know
Through the hardest of times
you put on a show

You made us stand tall
When all around us would fall
Even when you were alone
You believed you could fly

And one day we'll all sing along
'Cause this is your song
I wrote it for you
It won't take all day
Just a minute or two

You were a friend
Walk with you to the end
And one day we'll all sing along
'Cause this is your song

And one day we'll all sing along
'Cause this is your song
We wrote it for you
It'll take all our lives
Just to help us get through
You were a friend
Walk with you to the end
And one day we'll all sing along
'Cause this is your song

alrighty!.. some advices from dan.. thank god he msged me in time. b4 i reg for my jae reg. was sayin MIT is really like crazy.. progin progin n progin. hMmx.. had all e sciences up front first. hopin to make my wae to biomed sci. biotech is first but that's like 13?! TRY.. yay. biomed's at NP!!.. dont even noe how to go there man.
done with it. phews!

n how weird i uploaded sometimes when we touch.. n i linked. but when it's played.. it's all diff songs?! hahahs. cant stop laughin. yepps changed to this song now.. dint know wht song was it.. listened n sounded soothin. =) yepps.

stef n cy isnt workin tmrs, they're goin to polys for that jae thingy. is me agn... fine.. i'm okaee with it. another malay fren.. another chi. okaee la. but eveyone wud b askin bout results n stuff. *mouth shuts* shant have e habit of not goin to work eva again unless i cant tahan. yessh. =] must have respondsibility...

hmmx.. prob meet up with my girlfrens this week. n mel, passin her sth. when she's free. mel gd luck for ur tests n ur FINAL presentation yay!!!
guess wht i gave my first kiss *first kiss to a girl* to CHIA SULI!! when she was bout to get her results..[blush]
ciaos...